These Shoes Are Done Walking... Garden Girl Closes A Door and Begins A New Adventure....

Five years ago I lost my job in New Jersey...This is my official school photo as a Library Assistant.  I loved that job.  I remember the day I was told I was going to lose my job at the end of the school year, it was the same day that I had gone to the school thinking about asking the Librarian if I should take the Library Assistant classes offered at the local college.  I was excited to learn more about being a Library Assistant and dreamt of being in that job forever.  Instead when I got to the school I was asked to go to the Principals office.  What happened devastated me.  I was told due to budget cuts I would be out of a job at the end of the school year.  The Principal was a wonderful man, and what a hard job it was for him that year, I was the first of many that would lose their jobs.  I had never lost a job before and it hurt.  That is why I started this blog five years ago.  It was called in the beginning Losing My Job In New Jersey.  I am and always will be the type of employee who is loyal to the end.  And I blogged about my last days as a Library Assistant and how despite knowing I was losing my job I would work and be the best employee to the end.  That is the type of person I am.  There were things I learned over that six month period that made me a better person.  I learned that I could work for a job even though I knew I was leaving and still be positive.  I learned a lot about looking for new jobs.  One thing I learned was that in this day and age most people do not stay in a job till they retire.  That a job is stepping stone and you stay until you find something better.

These are my work shoes from my job that I just left.  I think maybe I've had them for five years.  Over the past few months I've been thinking I need to find new shoes...These shoes have walked around my old job for too long.  They are worn out.  At my old job I walked about 9 to 10 miles a day...

The soles of my shoes are so worn out that there are holes in them...As I looked at my shoes I realized that I had become as worn out as my shoes...I was no longer feeling passionate about my job, I was not seeing what the next step in my job would be...And that is when I remembered my job in New Jersey...That was when I remembered all that I had learned when losing my job.  That people don't have to stay in jobs, that when you no longer feel passion you can look to see what else is out there.  I started to go to an employment center to have my resume worked on.  If you want a new job, go to employment centers. If you live in Utah and are LDS you should go to their employment centers.  There are so many free services for you.  Even if you are not LDS you can go to them and get help and free services too.  I found that I could get free computer classes if I needed them. I found that there were job fairs, and events that helped people to network.  I had one on one help with my resume, and was given tips and tricks on how to apply for jobs online.  Many people stay at a job because they feel they can't find anything better.  But that is not the case, you can find things that are better.

I found that I could close the door on a job that was no longer right for me.  I found that not only were my shoes in need of being changed, but I was in need of a change.   I shut the door to a job that no longer fit me, and felt happiness.  With the help of the LDS Employment center I found that I could move on and make more money and find a job where I had room to grow more.  When someone gets a job, they go back to the employment center and they hit a giant bell...They ring in a new adventure.  I have to go do that soon, but need to wait for my special helpers to be there to celebrate with  me.

There is a new door opening in front of me...I am excited to walk through this door and see the possibilities that are in front of me.  I no longer fit in my old work shoes...I no longer need to walk miles everyday...I have changed and found the new me to be so much more strong and happy.  I will continue to share my adventures with you...I think it will be a much healthier adventure for me and my family.

Now this pair of shoes...My Garden Shoes...Well they have a lot more work to do...It's too bad there isn't an app that keeps track of how much you garden...Because I don't think my Fit Bit will get to 10 miles for a long time...But if there was some way to measure the amount of gardening you do I'm sure it would find me doing hours of it... But I'll save that story for another day.  If you have recently changed jobs or find yourself on a new adventure tell me about it.  I'd love to hear what you are doing.
G.G.

Kimberly, Kimberly Quite Contrary...How did your garden grow?...Looking back to last years garden and what I learned...

As I start to plan what I want to do in my garden this year I look back at what I learned last year.  One thing I did last year was plant seeds in little green house containers...I learned that you need to plant the same seeds in a container, I planted some different ones and then some lived and some died...I love seeing the whole life cycle of plants...It's my inner scientist wanting to know how everything works.

I get a lot of sun light in my house which I love.  I was so excited to have plants that grew so well..These are baby Black Eyed Susan Vines...Learning the right time to move a baby plant from the house to the garden was the next step in my gardening experience...Some of the little plants lived and some unfortunately died...

One problem I ran into last year was the neighborhood cat..I would plant something and the next morning it would be dug up..I found that planting forks in my garden kept the cats away...But it got a lot of questions..At the end of the year I found some clip on flowers and put them on the forks and said that they finally bloomed....

This is one of the first flowers in my garden each year..Periwinkle...I'm always happy to see it blooming.

I'm trying to fill my front yard garden with small flowering plants..I tried this Portulaca plant...They did pretty good in my garden, but I don't think I will plant them again this year.

We have a fence along our back yard and I tried to grow morning glories up it last year, I think I waited a little long to plant them, I'm hoping they come back on their own...Oh and forks..I planted lots of forks last year...I wish people would keep their cats inside...

It was wonderful to plant a seed and see it grow and flower...This is a Black Eyed Susan Vine flower..

I so enjoyed my garden last year...I can't wait to do some more experiments this year and share them with you.
G.G.

The Language of Flowers...A book I'm reading again and how it inspired me in my life....

Here is a book that I am going to read again...I can't remember when I read it last, probably two years ago or more.  I don't typically read books twice because most of the time I will remember so much about reading the book that it isn't fun for me to read it again.  But I really love this book because the main character uses her love and knowledge of flowers to heal from a hard life and to help others.  If you have ever worked with foster care children this is a book you should read as the main character is a foster care child.  This book is what inspired me to take photo's of flowers and make cards from them.  Any one who loves flowers and wants to learn more about their meaning will love this book.

Spring is coming to Utah and I'm getting ready to work in my garden...I've picked a few books from the library to learn more about the plants that grow well here.  So this is some of my fun reading in the next few weeks.  This way I'll know what seeds to buy.

My other garden book to read is about Succulents...I'm a crazy Hen's and Chickens gardener...I have these ideas and can't wait to try them out.

I'd also like to make a mini fairy garden...So I got this magazine to read...The garden shop up the street from my house has tons of little fairies for a garden...

This is what my flower cards look like.  I love that you can send a card and the flower could have a meaning.  The very bottom card is of Periwinkle it's meaning is "Fond Remembrance"...As I make these cards I am going to make tags on the back that tell what the flower is...and then it will be up to the person who receives that card to look up the meaning of the flower to see what message I have sent them.  In April our church leaders have asked that we do one small act of service everyday.  I think one of my acts of service each week will be to send people cards and tell them about how much they mean to me.  I can't wait to be working in my garden, and to visit gardens in Utah this year.  I look forward to sharing more with you.
G.G.
If you would like a flower card leave a message with your address and I will send you one...I have lots of them.

My Book Reading Challenge of the Year.....

I saw a book challenge on Facebook and decided that I would try it....
Here is the list..
Read a book...

• Published this year....I'll be waiting for one of my favorite authors to have a new book out!
• You can finish in a day...That is the book in the photo...
• You have been meaning to read....Not sure about this one as I usually read books I've been meaning to read...
• recommended by a librarian or book seller....
• You should have read in school...
• chosen by your spouse, sibling, child or BFF....Mom send me a recommendation!
• published before you were born...The book Heaven and Hell....I'm slowly getting to the end
• that was banned at some point....Alice in Wonder land or green eggs and ham....
• that you previously abandoned... I have one in my car from last year.....
• that you own but have never read....I have 2 that I bought but have not had time to read yet! that can go with the meaning to read books too :)
• that intimidates you.... "The Witches book"  another book I'm slowly reading through...
• that you have read at least once before....I'll probably read "Garden Spells again this spring it is my spring garden magic book... 

So I loved this little owl wisdom book...Owls are my thing right now...
A favorite little quote... Be Soft. Do not let the world make you hard.  Do not let bitterness steal your sweetness.  Take Pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place....Kurt Vonnegut.
Are you doing any type of reading challenge this year?  What books would you recommend reading?
Other than this list I hope to read more books that have garden themes and family history mystery books...I hope to share some of the books that I love with you this year...I have photos....Now just have to find time to blog!
G.G.

Seeking The Savior....My spiritual promptings during church.....

It was so nice to have another Sunday off and to be able to attend Church.  The focus of our Sacrament meeting was keeping strong in the faith through understanding the atonement.  One of the hymns we sang was "Hold To The Rod".  Part of the song says " The Iron Rod is the word of God"...as I thought of this I remembered my scripture reading in the New Testament this week...Where you learn that The Savior is The Word....Always when I thought of this song and holding to the rod I thought of holding onto the scriptures and reading them...But today it came to me that what I really should be doing is Holding onto the Savior...To look and seek for him and hold on to his words and become like him....It has become one of my new year goals to seek each day for the Savior and to think of him as much as I can during my day and week. 
The lesson in our 3rd hour of church was also about the Savior.
The quotes that stuck out to me were.. "We must know Christ better than we know him.... We must remember him more often.  Do we love the Lord enough to give up our sins?  We talked of ways that we can think of the Lord more...
During Christmas I bought a new calender for our house that has paintings of the Savior..I also bought some small prints.  Now when I work on my projects in my dining area when I look up I see the Savior.
Another important thing to do is show him graditude for his help in our lives.  I realize that this is something that I have focused on for the past two years.  I'm thankful that I am walking down this path and finding ways to seek the Lord more.
One thing I am thankful for is that every time I go through a trial I reach more to my Savior and turn more towards him instead of away from him.  I become more determined to find him in my life.  Many of the women shared their moments of help from the Savior during a struggle....It reminded me of our move out to Utah.  It was a hard time in our lives...I remember having a dream of being on top of a cliff, I was blindfolded and had to trust that I would be led down the mountain.  At the end of the dream I was turned around to face the mountain and the blindfold was taken off...I remember looking at the steep cliff and knowing that I was carried down the mountain and that it was the Savior who took care of me...That was the moment I knew that no matter what happened during our move I would be cared for.  I love when I have spiritual dreams..
At the end of the lesson we sang "Be Still My Soul"  I was grateful that I could sing it without crying as it was one of the songs I played over and over before we moved.  Oh how I love that song and how it talks of the Savior taking care of our needs and knowing what we need.  I look forward to a new week of seeking my Savior. 
How do you remember the Savior in your daily life?
G.G.

Our Year in Review....Good Bye 2015

Looking back at 2015 I feel we had a pretty good year...I don't feel as storm tossed as I have in the years before...I like this photo of my husband and I looking out at the calm ocean in New Jersey...I'm hoping that our life this year can remain calm that we can have more joy than sorrow and more success than failure...That we can grow but not be challenged to a point of frustration and heart ache....

The big loss of 2015 was the loss of my Father in Law....As I have watched my husband over the course of this year I have seen him battle with the grief and unfinished relationship....I was glad that he had been able to go and see his father before his death and have a little peace...But we had believed he was getting better and that we would all see each other during our planned summer vacation...It was hard to have the loss come so unexpectedly....I'm thankful that we had airline tickets and the ability to have my husband be able to attend the funeral....Loss takes time to heal from...I find some comfort from my belief that there is a part of us that lives on and that the spirit of our departed loved ones is able to watch over us...I imagine my father in law in a young state again and that he comes to events with us...That empty chair next to me is not empty but there is a spirit of a loved one with us watching band concerts, celebrating good times and comforting us when we are sad...On our way to Vermont this past year the song "Paper Roses" came on and I thought my grandmother Miller must be with us as we would sing that song together....

One of my focuses this year was spending more time with my Husband and seeing more of Utah...When we moved here we were storm tossed and tired...We went  right to work and have felt like we have been barely treading water...I think the first two years here if I had just sunk under and left this world I would have been happy....This past year I have finally felt as if I'm stronger and that I have energy...One place we visited was the Thanksgiving Point Tulip festival...I would love to buy a membership to this place it is beautiful and to go on walks often would be nice...That is one thing I'd like to do this year go on more walks with my husband...

We also had our yearly trip to the Salt Lake Temple to see all the flowers blooming...I love to see gardens...I hope we can find some new ones to visit this year...I'll have to make a list...

Despite losing all our free plane tickets that was the reason we could go out East for a visit...We went...Because sometimes you just have to live and do....And we needed this trip on so many levels....

We needed to see family and friends and my husband needed to be by the ocean...We walked down our old neighborhood streets and had all our favorite foods...

We went to our favorite park...And spent a few afternoons at that beach....If only we could have made time go slowly that week....

Then we drove to the green mountains of Vermont and had time with my family....We got to relax and eat wonderful food and spend time visiting....

We had a cook out on the hottest day of the year for Vermont...It didn't seem as hot to us...We loved being surrounded by the Green and my family loved the humidity in the air...I have to say I like the dry desert air...

Once home the rat race began again...The kids got ready to go back to school...My son is a senior...How did that happen....My husband worked so many hours that I wished we had made our trip a little longer...and I knew the holiday rush of retail was looming in the distance....

We started the process of looking at colleges...My son hopes to be an animator someday...He is always drawing and animating and dreaming up ideas..He has been accepted to one college so far and waiting to hear from others...

Senior Photo's and and School photo's came and I was very pleased with how well they came out...I think often how did these two children grow up so fast...And I feel blessed because they are good teens...They are the type that you want to keep and yet realize you have to let them go...They have their journeys ahead of them...my biggest hope is they are happy and find life to be good and have more success than failure...

My daughter had lots of Karate events and moved up in belt ranks....It is fun to watch her learn and do in this sport...

My son has been learning to cook and do things that will help him survive on his own...He has a job, and likes the independence of making his own money....Just wish he would like to save a bit more...

We had a family photo adventure...It's the last one with the children as children or a I guess teens/young adults...We are not sure if our son will be home next Christmas he could be...Or he could be called to a mission and be far away...I'm not quiet ready for that...And yet he looks forward to it...He would like to go far away and be tested...I would like to keep him close by...Our little family is changing...We started out as two...Then had three..and then four...and now we will go to three..and then back to two...And yet we are not totally losing the two children...and perhaps in the future we will gain another daughter and son through marriage and hopefully down the road grandchildren....This circle of life is amazing...full of Joy and sorrow...and goes by way too fast.....
I hope you had a good 2015 and that 2016 will be one to enjoy...
G.G.

Keeping your torch lit....The begining of my Spiritual Journey of 2016

So today in church the third our lesson was on keeping your torch lit as you run the race of life...Or keeping the Light of Christ with you and as your focus.  It was nice to discuss how we are not in competition with others and our journey is our own and ways to keep our focus daily on the Savior...
As I pondered about this I thought of all the things I've been doing in recent weeks and how this will help me on my Spiritual Journey this year.  Above are the books that I have purchased or have been given in the past few weeks.  I have had a wonderful end to 2015 and I believe much of that had to do with my turning my thoughts to the Savior.  I have been searching for him through out the Christmas season, more than focusing on worldly activities.  In this I found that Christmas was a wonderful time this year.  It has been the best Christmas since we have moved.  And the only Change that really took place was my focus on Christ.  I have been feeling the need to learn how to be a light to others for the Savior...How do I live each day so that I can bring God's light to others?  That has been my question for the past few months..
Today the challenge at the end of Church was to work on your spiritual light by trying to do something spiritual for 30 days... And so here are the new books I will be reading in the next month that I hope will help me grow closer to my Savior...

One of my friends gave me this book to read...I think I have read it before...But my focus has been the Savior for a few months now and so perhaps reading it again will give me more understanding...

The focus of our Sacrament meetings last year was keeping the Sabbath Day Holy and reverence during the Sacrament...I got this book to help my focus stay on the Savior during the Sacrament..

These three books are my search for what life after death brings...I love to read books on this subject I have actually read the top two books and now reading them again as I am working on writing a book and they are helping with this process and the bottom book is interesting and frustrating and slow to read...But I always come away thinking more about life and death and how I look to the Savior after a few pages of it...

This is the last of the "Spiritual Journey" books for the month...I hope to gain more insight into the parables of our Savior while reading this book... I hope this year to do more spiritual blogging on Sundays it was one thing I wanted to do more of last year but did not have time to do...  Let me know if you have read any of these books and what you may be doing to grow closer to the Savior.
Here is the link to the talk from the Sunday lesson today... Finish with your torch still lit....
Happy New Year!
G.G.